“He started to move energy, and he started to pick up on things that I had never told him or anyone, and as he was feeling into my energy it started to get me to believe. As he started healing in my heart, he told me ‘You have a very heavy heart, so much sadness, You’ve been forgiving, but you still need to let go of forgiveness. You’re still holding onto it.’ And he asked me to call out the names of the people that I needed to forgive….” -Josephina Bashout
Heart won’t dismiss
Heart won’t forgive
I’ll burn this bed
Fire, release my pain
Fire, release my love
I held her closely, just glad she was alive. She cried into my shirt, and I whispered sweet nothings to her until her ride came. Her step mother arrived 10 minutes later, followed by the friends who drove me. It hurt to see her go home, but I was glad she was alive.
If you asked her to tell the story, she would exaggerate it into something silly and less romantic. She would remember things oddly, and wasn’t sentimental. Years later, she and I would break up. She would lie to me, break my trust, betray me, and ultimately cheat on me. In the end, I wasn’t far enough along in my life for her needs.
I moved to DC with my boyfriend over 4 years ago. At the time, we had our future together planned out. After some family turmoil, he left his job, family and me to pursue his opportunities elsewhere and to deal with his issues. In the process, he walked all over me and treated me like…
Last year after Shambhala my B.F. broke up with me because I was too much of a free spirit.
And I had to start from the beginning. I betrayed the most important trust I ever had.