“Hold on, don’t give up… the fact that you’re staying alive, this is the most important thing–that you will be alive for the inevitable process of change.”
Fiction. Based on a True Conversation on Writing.
All journal entries are inspired by true events. Some of the characters, names, businesses, incidents, and certain locations and events have been fictionalized for dramatic purposes. Any similarity to the name, character or history of any person is entirely coincidental and unintentional.
You commute over an hour to work. Your boss treats you terribly. Your clients sometimes care about being there. Sometimes they are disrespectful or immature. You commute over an hour and a half home in traffic. Your thoughts escape you as you sit bumper to bumper. You dream of writing something beautiful, something amazing. You finally get home and you usually eat and fall asleep. You think about writing. You think about your book. You think about your play.
D: Did you write at all today?
S: No. I wanted to.
D: Why didn’t you?
S: I feel like I’m losing my passion for writing…
D: But it’s what you want to do with your life.
S: I know. I just feel scared about it.
D: Why scared?
S: Because I know what I’m capable of. I feel like I’m going to fall short and fail myself.
D: You are thinking too much about it. You are restraining yourself. Your best work has come when you just sit and write.
S: For so long, I’ve been trapped by something: school, homework, work, commuting. It just never ends.
D: Well maybe you should try waking up early and just writing. Make yourself some coffee and just type your heart out.
You wake up early. You drive to your favorite coffee shop. You open your laptop. Your email is full. You address the ones that need attention. You check your LinkedIn and GlassDoor and hope that someone wants to hire you to be their Content Writer. You browse through the apartment listings, hoping the ones you loved yesterday are still available today. You take a breath. You open a new tab. A blank Google doc. You change the font and size. You start to type.